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well I'm sitting right above 4700 calories on the day and its only like 8pm. I got 28lbs I'm trying to put on and it's difficult it's really tough. it cost a good amount of money for food and for the right food it cost even more. I'm a 32 year old drug addict alcoholic tryna recovery and do good but I still am missing something in my life. I went thru a divorce , lost my kids in a custody battle, went thru dope heroin pills weed and drank and i live on the floor in a corner at my mommas house in her living room. I'm not working, back and forth with the temp agency and well... im behind on Bill's and my car is past due and I'm running on a donut at the moment. it's crazy how the timing of everything is so damn near organized. I pray. I got Faith. and I suck with money and relationships. but I love working out and eating ain't too bad neither. this better than being locked up no doubt but I'm still missing something and it sets me apart I feel distant and different from others and I dont like it , ut i like it at the same time. I'm journaling for myself to look back on if you ain't got nothing nice to say or some criticism that can help me , don't say shit ... I'm trying to put on weight. im just eating whatever I can at the moment... fridge is pretty barren but I got what I need and I'm grateful. this covid shit has really mentally messed with my life and well I pray for miracles. things are gonna improve goals are gonna get met and accomplished and things are gonna fall into place for me when God says it's time. so im taking it day to day and trying to improve myself and do something cause I dont know what the fuck im doing ... that's all my names Brian. hope you all are working hard to meet y'alls goals and stay consistent.. it helps. thate my rant for the evening .
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5042 kcal
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Rasva: 182,40g | Prot: 208,35g | Hh: 659,15g.
Aamiainen: Coffee with Cream, Whole Milk, Quaker Instant Oatmeal - Regular. Lounas: Toasted Garlic Bread, Noodles & Company Alfredo Montamore (Regular), Medi Whey Protein Shake. Päivällinen: Combat Protein, Jack in the Box Chocolate Overload Cake, Pizza with Meat. Välipalat/Muut: Jack in the Box Chocolate Overload Cake, Swedish Fish Softy Chewy Candy. lisää...
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