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Woke up with a cold nose! Did I become canine overnight? No. The temperature dropped to a chilly 9 outside and 52 inside! BRRR! Blue wanted to go outside so I decided to get up, make coffee, and start the fire and warm up this place! A little earlier than I had planned but holy smokes I didn't know it was going to get so cold again. Our indoor/outdoor the thermometer no longer reads the outdoor temp. Guess I will break down and order a new one. Even new batteries didn't bring it to life. We have the old fashioned kind hanging outside but I can't read it when it's dark! Guess I've gotten spoiled.
It was lovely to read your comments to my musings from last night. Thank you! How can someone go to bed hungry but not wake up hungry? Interesting. Makes me wonder if what I was feeling was truly hunger. Weight was steady this morning. A pleasant surprise. I expected a fluctuation as that is typically what my body does after a loss on the scale, but no! I will be spot on today. Surely soon I'll be able to wear another pair of pants!
I also perused my weight history last night. Although I did lose down to 178 back in 2009 my longest stretches were in the 180's for a low, but more commonly in the low 200's. As an adult I've always dreamed of 175 but perhaps that is unrealistic? DH tells me 185 is better for me. He may be right. For now I'm not focusing on the "final" number but simply 10 lbs at a time. It is much more motivating for me. Psychological I'm certain but that is my plan. When I get to 219 I'll change my goal to 209, so on and so forth.
DH had last night off. Monday was a holiday and his work doesn't want to pay overtime and so he took Friday off. I was able to scoot home a little early and able to attend to some It Works! business before settling into Game of Thrones. I'm taking Monday off again so very happy to know I have three full days off from work! More time to journal. More time to exercise!
On the stepdaughter front nothing has changed. She doesn't call daddy much now. I checked her bank account the other day. She is overdrawn. She said she filed taxes but no deposit from the government. Rent is due a week from today, and her 3rd pet deposit installment. I suspect we will be paying them both. DHs plan is to call her Sunday or Monday Her attitude was so poor last week when he called he is tempted not to pay the rent, instead to call the manager and tell him we will pay as soon as she is evicted. DH says he wants to see what her attitude is in the next phone call and then decide his course of action. We are liable for the rent regardless, through May 31. So I'm not sure it matters what direction we take. I do know that this is typical for my daughter. Sad but typical. Unfortunate but typical. Sadly I will never have with her the kind of relationship my mom and I have, or like the one my grandmother and mother had. Simply the facts. Many sad things happen in life. It isn't always fair. DH says the fair comes in August and stays for a week!
I also have a granddaughter I'll likely never see again in life. My stepsons daughter. We fostered her from 2-4 years of age. She will be 11 in May and we haven't seen her since she was 4. Not our choice. Her mothers. Our son basically didn't step up to his responsibilities (another sad tale) and her mother did. When the CPS case closed we thought we had a good relationship with her mom. She had another baby, and though our son was not his dad we considered him our grandson. The moment the case closed her mom stopped returning our calls. Rumor has it she married and moved to Minnesota. Life is definitely not fair. We had her to love for such a short time and hold those memories in our hearts. When an Al Green songs plays on the radio we laugh. We have an Al Green CD we'd play and she, from her car seat in the back seat, would always say "I don't like Al Green!" What a character!
My granddaughter, my daughter, those are things out of my control. My body? What I eat? If I exercise or not? In my control. Sad or unfair events in life? Out of my control. What I choose to focus on, be grateful for, impact me emotionally, completely in my control. So today I carry on, grateful for the life I do have, for the loved ones (related and unrelated) in my life, the fact that I have a fairly healthy working body.
I am also grateful for ...
Having my mom still with me
Having a husband (who drives me nuts sometimes) who I know loves me dearly
Having one son who I have a special connection with and brings a smile to my face
Being good at my profession
That my work affords me lots of baby/toddler time and sharing with parents ... Sort of a pseudo grandparent role for me.
And always ... Coffee!
Blessings! Onward on this path of kindness towards myself and embracing life. Take care!
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798 kcal
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Rasva: 31,49g | Prot: 71,75g | Hh: 53,77g.
Lounas: Baby Spinach, Feta Cheese, Chicken Breast Meat (Broilers or Fryers), Egg. Päivällinen: Lean Cuisine Culinary Collection Spinach Artichoke Ravioli. Välipalat/Muut: Prima Della Black Angus Roast Beef, Deli Turkey or Chicken Breast Meat, Almonds. lisää...
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2885 kcal
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Elliptical - 30 minuuttia, Pilates - 45 minuuttia, Lepo - 14 tuntia ja 45 minuuttia, Nukkuminen - 8 tuntia. lisää...
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