Not a good day today...if I could find rain to put on this journal I would.
With ATF, its ok. Just had a cup of coffee, which I'm drinking right now. I have no appetite.
I know I have to eat, and I will, but I have to get through this loss I had to deal with this morning. I don't mean to dump my emotions on you, but I know can here. I had to put one of my cats to sleep this morning...
I've been through this before, and you know, it never gets easier. Each loss, is like the very first one. My little mouthy girl Blaze developed some masses in her intestines, and I took her to the vet back in I think september. We couldn't do anything for them then. I knew that this day would come, just not so quickly!
She went downhill with the speed of a bullet. 3 days. Gone. At least I know that she won't suffer. I will place her in the back yard, in my now cat plot. I think I'll get some nice wind chimes and some twirly things and finish the headstones I had started. Now to make another. I may have to go to Lowes this weekend and grab another marble floor tile.
The other girls, Blazes sisters seem to know she's gone. They are a little subdued, and have each come to give me some love, and to lay near me for a little while. They each stopped by the carrier just before I left, and none when I got back.
Yep, I'm that crazy cat lady that some neighborhoods have. I have a large clowder(group) of cats in the house, and around 8 or so ferals that I feed outside. Our little family is one less today. Maybe it was so I/we could have room to rescue someone. You never know...
I'm going to see if I can post a picture of her, if not I'm going to change my profile pic to her for a while. I want to thank all of you for your thoughts and comments, even before I post this, as I know you guys are more than just FS buddies, you are my friends, and I love each and every one of you!!
Please, don't let my journal make you have a blue day, Have a great day, go outside and get some fresh air, go for a walk, exercise! Enjoy it if you can get out!!
Love you all!!
Lu =^.^=
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