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What a difference a day makes! The overwhelming sadness of yesterday as I was leaving my son in his new home has become acceptance & excitement for him as he enters this new chapter in his life was well as joy & relief to be home, sweet, home… there truly is no place like home! While it was a wonderful trip & I'm thrilled with how his new apartment shaped up, it was so, so hard to say goodbye knowing he had some lonely days ahead, but I know he'll find his way and will learn another life lesson on what it takes for him to be happy again and how to accomplish that.
And, I was very pleasantly surprised how thoughtful & supportive DH was been which has meant so much too! Sometimes he can seem so oblivious, but not this time. He texted me at the airport, just at the right moment, as I was fighting back tears. He surprised me by picking me up from the airport as I'd arranged a driver because it meant DH had to leave work early. And he asked me out for a date night tonight! He really came through this time & I'm so appreciative and happy for that.
I was so busy each day with DS that I haven't been here on FS much at all, but hope you are all doing, feeling and eating well, and I hope to catch up on journals soon. You've been missed and as always, I so appreciate your love & support! I've been staying my course as best as I could again while away, and through the travel day home, which is a huge accomplishment for me as it's been a day I usually struggle on, so I'm thrilled about that too. This time, I made a better choice to sit with the emotions where as in the past, I've emotionally eaten instead. I'm hoping that I'm learning that emotional eating only temporality relieves the pain which eventually has to be felt and death with.
Yesterday, I prayed & breathed my way through, and today again I'll pray --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
And through this one day and each one meal, moment, bite, thought & emotion, I'll pray, breathe, journal & express my way. I'm so very grateful for each of amazing you, my family & IRL friends, how supportive & loving DH has been, having had a wonderful time with DS and coming home with wonderful memories of the visit and the health & wealth to live this life I love! xoxox
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