Päiväkirja - madaboutmoose, 11 touko 09

Good Morning my friends!! It is a rainy morning here in North Idaho but that is okay. I'm at my second office ... Starbucks!! LOL!! So, at least I have windows to look out of. I've been working on an online continuing education course that I can't watch at my office because our internet connection is too slow ... therefore Starbucks (and other locations around town) has become my second home!! I enjoyed a nice Mother's Day weekend. It was a treat to take my mom out to breakfast with my husband and shopping!! So fun to see her wearing things she couldn't wear before in a smaller size!!

I'm in count-down mode ... to vacation!! A whole week of no alarm clocks and time to hang out with my favorite man. We are both sooooo ready for a little "down time." I'm dealing with Frank's fluctuations in a much more "matter-of-fact" way lately too. You may have noticed I am not putting in my weight everyday. Yes, I am still weighing everyday and writing it down in my old fashioned journal but I am not putting it in here everyday. It is working okay for me so far. I still like the daily weigh-ins simply for accountability. However, I am paying more attention to what I know I ate and how much I exercised rather than Frank's daily number. For example, today Frank says I am "up." That seems to happen every weekend. It is strange. I exercise more on the weekend and the scale fluctuates up. Interesting but not distressing like it used to be for me.

I had to laugh. I was reading a People magazine my mom brought home over the weekend. It had an article about the tennis player that was stabbed by a deranged Steffi Graf fan some time ago and her struggle with becoming "FAT." In the article they mentioned she is 5'10" tall. Her FAT weight was 178. Gee ... three pounds above my SKINNY weight!! True, maybe for her 178 was FAT. Momentarily I thought to myself ... "oh my god ... I'll still be FAT at 175 ... maybe I should lose more!" Then I slapped myself figuratively across the face and realized that each journey is individual and it is NOT HELPFUL or HEALTHY for me to compare myself to a 20-something athlete!!!! Tee hee!!! I really don't know where my body will level out and it DOES NOT MATTER!!!!! I am doing what I need to do to take care of myself. I feel FANTASTIC and I look pretty darn good these days for a 50-something woman. I feel and look better NOW than I did when I was twenty-something!! Isn't that grand? I am so grateful for the support of my loved ones and my friends here. I am so glad to finally be making peace with myself and with food. It is so much more enjoyable than constantly feeling "less than", stressed, and obsessed with food.

Well ... I better get to work!! I have over 12 hours of class to finish by the end of Wednesday so no more goofing off!! Have a splendid day ... take good care of yourselves. If you are still looking at food as "good" and "bad" please consider another alternative. Life is much too short ... make the most of it!!!

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