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Feeling stronger & healthier each day as I focus on staying curious through the desires to eat in ways that don't make me feel my best. It's crazy that i do that to myself, but it's a crazy world we live in and I've developed crazy ways to deal with it all from a very young age. Don't get me wrong, I use the word crazy in a very positive way -- if I hadn't developed the weight, diet and exercise obsessions and sugar addiction, I could have chosen much worse alternatives as I obviously didn't have the healthier coping skills that i'm learning now with each passing day. And they did get me through, and through to a wonderful, fulfilling, fun life. As I've mentioned before, I was at the height of my struggles 30 years ago when my sister passed away after a battle with skin cancer. The disordered eating & living lessened with time & mostly subsided after I got married and had my boys, as being a mom was completely & totally what I was put on this earth to do. But, with the start of menopause, empty nesting and my Mom's (my only living immediate family) diagnosis of Alzheimer's, I again felt the intense building of the sugar cravings return. So, this journey began to again make peace with the emotions, changing hormones, and my weight and eating issues. Staying sugar aware and away from it as well as gluten and dairy are when I feel at my best. So, it's finding that balance between restricting/depriving myself too much yet eating for true hunger reasons & nourishment most of the time, mindfully. And, accepting that I'll never do so perfectly, nor should I strive too, for its progress not perfection that I strive for, one day at a time.
Last night, DH and I had a nice dinner out to celebrate what will be our 26th wedding anniversary on Weds. As it's DS's 25th birthday on that same day, we're out tonight to celebrate with him. I'm off to zumba shortly, then some birthday gift shopping which may put me very near my favorite clothes boutique! But, first, I'll begin in prayer --
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
So I'll pray, breathe, log, journal, stay curious & express my way through this one day and each one meal, bite, thought and emotion. I'm forever & always grateful for each of amazing you, my family & IRL friends, sunshine again after hard rain all day yesterday, 26 mostly blissful years with DH, 25 years with my wonderful DS and having the health & wealth to live this life I love! xoxox
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1598 kcal
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Rasva: 84,77g | Prot: 112,25g | Hh: 99,48g.
Aamiainen: Trader Joe's Fire Roasted Bell Peppers & Onions, Trader Joe's Grilled Asparagus Spears, White Toque Grilled Eggplant, Spectrum Naturals Organic Coconut Oil, Harmless Harvest 100% Raw Coconut Water, Daiya Mozzarella Style Shreds, Egg White, Egg. Lounas: Turkey Meat (Cooked, Roasted), Trader Joe's Organic Baked Teriyaki Tofu, Simply Enjoy Grilled Mixed Vegetables, Mixed Salad Greens, Extra Virgin Olive Oil. Päivällinen: No Name Mixed Berries, Allens Seasoned Southern Style Mustard Greens, Cooked Kale (from Fresh, Fat Added in Cooking), Longhorn Steakhouse Grilled Fresh Rainbow Trout. Välipalat/Muut: Trader Joe's Fancy Raw Mixed Nuts, Kaia Foods Kale Chips Sea Salt & Vinegar. lisää...
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1665 kcal
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Harjoitus:
Nukkuminen - 8 tuntia, Lepo - 15 tuntia, Tanssi (nopearytminen, aerobinen) - 1 tunti. lisää...
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