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I am feeling really depressed, tired, and old. I feel really overwhelmed. People keep telling me... you can do it. But I feel weighed down that I spend the majority of time at work or asleep. Otherwise, I am doing chores. I feel at a loss as how to eat with the meds I am on. I want to exercise but I am too tired. This is an excuse but I wish I didn't have to work and all I needed to focus on was me and my health. But, I can't do this.
I have some major psychological hurdles. I just feel depressed and I feel horrible because I am jealous people who have been able to accomplish what I can't seem to do. So not only do I feel crappy, tired, sick from my meds... I feel shitty because I am jealous/envious at the success of friends and sorry for how such a failure of a person I am.
I growing more and more depressed. I am tired of my life and my determination, heart, and caring for myself are exhausted. I don't want anyone's pity or even sympathy. I am tired, and I really don't know how much more I can take of this anymore. I really don't know why I was born.
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you should seek professional help with regards to your diet and psychological issues. do not give up, you were born for a reason you just havent reached your full potential yet... but you will.
17 huhti 11 jäseneltä: fayanne
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Hi! I just read you journal and I am saddened that you are so sad! You are a unique person, with gifts from God, don't EVER say that about yourself. Jesus gave his life on the cross for ALL of us, not just a few. He loves you and wants the best for you. I would be glad and happy to be one of your buddies, to encourage you and help you along the way. Losing weight is a slow process, you don't look like you need to lose much from your profile picture, but I can tell you that you need to look yourself in the mirror and say, from this day forward, I will do my best, I will eat healthy and while others are eating artery clogging food, I will treat myself with respect. Please don't feel that way, there are too many people on this site that would love to help you. If you want to talk, you can contact me via email and I would be happy to let you vent and talk with you... God bless you! Debbie
17 huhti 11 jäseneltä: debbiegaile
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Hi W.I.W. I looked at your recent chart process, and, well, you have no reason to beleive that you are failing. You are consistantly losing weight on a normal basis, seemingly one or two pounds a eek this is far from failure. I am not going to appeal to you religously because I don't know what it is you believe, but from just this entry there are several references to what usefullness and purpose of life you show on a daily basis. Your friends are supportive of your diet and this in it of itself shows that you have been a good friend. As far as medication, well, some things cannot be helped. You might be allergic to one of them and you might want to ask if there are any alternitives that could be offered. With your job you might ask your boss if you could get better hours or possibly a raise. If not then sometimes, crap happens, bosses are inconsiderate, and your day stinks, but we endure these things for the sake of those who care about us, and I could see life bee a whole lot worse.
-Resol
17 huhti 11 jäseneltä: resol
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by thhe way you are not old at all quite young in fact
17 huhti 11 jäseneltä: resol
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Painohistoria - wolvesinwinter
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