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I'm really scared I've damaged my metabolism.
About five years ago I peaked at 180lbs, and without even trying (literally) I lost about 30lbs in 3 months to bring my weight to around 150lbs. I maintained that for a few years, and then I found out I was very sick and hadn't even realized it. I ended up in the hospital for two weeks with sepsis and came VERY close to dying (I was within about 1.5-2 days of being too far gone) but because of that infection it caused me to lose 25lbs in about a week and a half. I was down to 135lbs.
About a year after that experience I put a little bit of weight back on to bring my numbers back to around 145-150. As hard as I try I just can't seem to lose the weight now. I hear all of these people talk about not starving yourself because you'll screw up your metabolism and you'll never be able to lose the weight after that, and I'm so scared that that's what's happened to me.
Last year around March I decided enough was enough, I was walking 5+miles a day on the treadmill, doing workout videos, everything I thought was right and I stayed the course for almost 12 weeks and I lost probably 2lbs, if that. I'm scared to start another weight loss journey because I figure why bother? It's not going to work, it didn't work last year, what's so different about this time? To make matters worse, my doctor put me on a prescription that made me gain almost 10lbs in a couple of months (I'm no longer taking it).
I'm in a bad place and I don't know how to snap myself out of it. I wish I would wake up one morning with at least a 5lb loss. I don't know what I have to do to make this work and it's the most frustrating thing in the world.
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