Päiväkirja - Herbie, 17 huhti 15

I'm doing fine overall, but am feeling sad and a bit worried right now. I'm in my early 40s. I just had my first mammogram last week and the clinic called and said I need to come back in "for more pictures" to look at one spot more closely. I'm going in today, won't know results until early next week.

The rational part of my brain says that it's probably nothing. People get called back in all the time, and since this is my first scan they want to have a very good reading of everything. But I can't help but worry. I have so many friends who've had cancer, it is just shocking to me how common it is. Although I don't have any family history, which is good, I'm still very unhappy about the uncertainty this brings and the possibility of something very bad. Plus, I live in a small town, so now I am not sure how much to trust the clinic here and wonder if I'll need to go up to the hospital in the city an hour or so away. And it is frustrating to feel so helpless about my body right in the middle of my big effort to have more control over my health. Reminds me that we really can only control so much.

All of that is premature, of course, and I'm trying to listen to my rational brain. It's. Probably. Nothing. Wish me luck.

I also am selfishly sad that my closest friend here is moving for a year and I won't see her much. That's unrelated to this, of course, but adds to my feeling of sadness right now.

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My thoughts are with you. I had only several done my first one was my last for almost ten years cause I couldn't understand why they were worried about my spline from a MAMMOGRAM.. In the last four years normal nothing I lost weight and there it was a spot went back for further testing (ultra sound) just need to go back every 6 months its begin .. better safe  
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: deaby16
Thanks, deaby. Better safe, yes. Best of luck to you. 
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: Herbie
Listen to the rational part of your brain. I've been called back before too but it turned out to be nothing. But, it is good to know that if it is "something" it is always best to get it taken care of early. Take care!  
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: BuffyBear
Hope alls well  
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: genedougherty
I'm sure your rational brain is correct. You mentioned this is happening "right in the middle of my big effort to have more control over my health". Regardless of the outcome of this "call back", being in better health will allow you to better tackle the future health concerns that are a part of aging. Additionally, exercise will help you reduce the stress both now and in the future. That won't make the worry go away, but it will better equip you. We are all becoming stronger and healthier people as a result of this journey we are on. We are becoming the masters of our bodies and our health. We are honing these lumps into the best bodies they can be. Nothing but good can come from that. GOOD LUCK and Keep a positive attitude. 
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: mattstoc
Listen to your heart and know all will be well! 
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: HCB
Thinking of you today and praying that God will provide you with extra strength to handle all that is occurring in your life at this moment. 
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: 2227Gwen
This happened to me. If it is your first scan they almost always call you back because they don't have anything to compare it to. I've had 3 scans and was called back on the first two. Third one was problem free! So don't worry unless you need to. Good Luck! 
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: dukeybell
I was called back at my first mammo too. I had to have an ultrasound done, and the radiologist said "You have masses deep inside both breasts". I almost coded on the table. Then he says "But they're benign." I thought that was a cruddy way to tell me I was fine. My second mammo I was not called back. It's my understanding it's VERY common to be called back for more films or an ultrasound (especially if you have dense breasts). Will pray that all turns out well for you! 
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: dreamingangel
Thanks for all the support, you all are so great. I appreciate it. I'll let y'all know what happens. 
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: Herbie
Praying for good news, try not to worry.  
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: maryann1262
First one was a call back for me to - it was nothing. Positive thoughts yours is the same!  
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: Lucy1771
Good news! They called much sooner than I expected and said the scans were normal. I'm so relieved... and a bit sheepish for getting so freaked out. Thanks for all the kind words. 
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: Herbie
Woohoo! :) No sheepishness allowed. We've been there - we're women - we get it!  
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: Lucy1771
Great news! And who can blame you for freaking out. No one likes to deal with uncertainty.  
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: BuffyBear
great news!  
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: TB8267
Awesome Thank you Jesus for answered prayer. 
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: maryann1262
Yes, it was such great news that I celebrated by having both apple and pecans on my salad at lunch. How extravagant! LOL 
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: Herbie
YAY! So happy for you! Nothing to be ashamed of--how can you not freak out when you're waiting for such news?? 
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: dreamingangel
Terrific! Tis scary when they want a closer look  
17 huhti 15 jäseneltä: wholefoodnut

     
 

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