My weekly weigh in was on Saturday at 178.6 ... my daily weigh-in have shown gains, both yesterday and today ... but still I appear to be maintaining in my "range." Range maintenance is the way I'm trying to look at things these days, rather than being focused on one specific number. I think that is a better way for me to go rather than being subject to interpreting "failure" if I am not 175 lbs. That said, I would still like to see my range lower!! LOL!!! I've yet to see 175 on my scale ... that of course doesn't mean I won't see it I just haven't seen it yet. I keep telling myself it's okay ... I'm okay ... and overall I'm feeling fairly calm ... except of course for my nicotine cravings!! LOL!!!
One of the sweet older women here at the office, who is fond of me, offered me a doughnut this morning!! I kindly said no thank you. She wanted to know why ... since I "looked so good" ... I told her that I LOVE doughnuts so much I wasn't sure I could stop at one!! Told her without much effort I could eat the whole box. She looked at me in disbelief ... but it is true. I have done so on numerous occasions in the past. It isn't that the doughnut is "bad" ... if I felt calm enough I may have had one, or a 1/2 of one. I simply don't feel that calm right now. My fiber bar is a far wiser choice to go with my coffee.
I could probably "force" a quick drop in weight, down to that goal number, if I wanted to. Poet talked about taking DRASTIC measures. I could take DRASTIC measures ... but if doesn't feel "right" in my gut for me. The sides of my mountain are about swimming around in my range ... appreciating the length of time I have been under, and actually well under, 200 lbs. Being able to see my body with new eyes ... realizing that I do look so very different now. The longer I am able to do what I have been doing the more likely it will be that I will be able to continue doing this ... for the rest of my life. There is a piece of me that wants to throw caution to the wind ... and "be done" with all of this. I am reminded that I will NEVER "be done" ... I am a work in progress. Life is about process not product. I won't ever "arrive" ... because life is ever changing. The arrival I can see is accepting that if I desire to maintain my weight below 200 lbs that it is necessary to keep my body moving, keep track of what I eat, and stay on the scale.
Will I lose more weight? It could happen. Am I healthier than I was in January 2009 when I signed up for FatSecret? YES. Do I feel better physically and emotionally? YES. If I do not lose more weight can I be okay with that? I think so. But I think it is too soon to decide that my body has found its new balance. Six months from now perhaps I'll have a different opinion. For now ... I'm simply going to continue to put one foot in front of the other ... stay HERE ... and practice acceptance and kindness and joy. Have a wonderful day!!
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Rasva: 43,48g | Prot: 98,49g | Hh: 226,96g.
Aamiainen: Fiber One, medifast cocoa, water. Lounas: deli turkey slices, Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins, Alpine Lace Light Provolone, Yoplait Light Thick & Creamy Key Lime, Yoplait Light Thick & Creamy Lemon Meringue, 2% cottage cheese. Päivällinen: white turkey meat, Beef Flank (Lean Only, Trimmed to 0" Fat, Select Grade), avocado, cucumber, Original Iceberg Garden Salad (Zip), tomato, Feta Cheese, Newman's Balsamic Dressing, yellow sweet pepper, Perrier. Välipalat/Muut: Triscuit, Laughing Cow Light Garlic Cheese, nectarine, Yoplait Light Thick & Creamy French Vanilla, Speical K Bar - Chocolately Pretzel, Special K Protein Bar Honey Almond. lisää...
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Precor Elliptical - 46 minuuttia, Ajaminen - 2 tuntia, Toimistotyö - 9 tuntia, Lepo - 4 tuntia ja 14 minuuttia, Nukkuminen - 8 tuntia. lisää...
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Isn't funny how much more positive we are now? When did this happen? And, saying no to some foods has been a huge milestone for us. Donuts, I understand what you say about the ability to eat the whole box. It is SO doable and much wiser choice just to say no. Congrats on your new life.
10 elo 09 jäseneltä: Deana Garcia
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Thanks. Staying positive is sort of a lot of work!! LOL!!! Let's keep it up though ... I think it is better than the alternative!
10 elo 09 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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I like that phrase~~~"maintaining in your range". Sounds more positive than a number. I have problems stopping at just one if it taste really good, I know that about me, that is why I have none of that in my condo. I am weak, what can I say. lol
10 elo 09 jäseneltä: WECANDOTHIS
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Me too ... why tempt fate?
10 elo 09 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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I seem to be in the same place as you are (except for the nicotine cravings!). I'm eating healthy and exercising but the scale digits aren't really moving. Like you, I could take drastic measures but really don't want that right now! I like this maintaining phase, and once my body has this hiatus things may start moving again. I'm just not worried about it! Besides, if I was being drastic I wouldn't have had such a lovely lunch in DC today! :)
10 elo 09 jäseneltä: amryk
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Sounds like you are enjoying where you are right now!
10 elo 09 jäseneltä: abbadabba
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Why not enjoy this moment ... it is all we really have!! Tomorrow is yet uncertain, yesterday is gone. I'm trying!!
10 elo 09 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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Great journal today! I almost have tears in my eyes thinking about how un-necessarily tough I have been on myself. Your mention of the phrase "process not the product" is one of the mantras I chant when I walk alone. I say over and over and over again "THE PROCESS NOT THE PRODUCT - THE PROCESS NOT THE PRODUCT." I really do. Many of us are working hard to REWARD ourselves - not for the pounds lost but for the actions we take every day to be healthy. We all feel so much better than we did when - fill in the blank with something different for everyone.
11 elo 09 jäseneltä: poet-in-motion
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Really an excellent post and a lot to think about. Especially for a person much closer to the beginning of the journey. Congrats on making it through your rough times stronger than you started!
11 elo 09 jäseneltä: erikag
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Oh Erika ... you should read my post today ... some days are just easier than others I suppose!!
11 elo 09 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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