I am joining Densible's "silly sausage" club. I too am a silly sausage!!
SIGH. My wonderful scale read 212 this morning. Yes. Really. Ugh. Something is amiss. Frustrated? Yes. Disheartened? Yes. Giving up? No.
I took a "rest" day from exercise today. Not that I really wanted to but we stayed up too late last night watching a movie and I thought it might be important to get an extra 45 minutes of sleep rather than exercise. I'm still a little sore today but not as much as the past couple of days.
Hubby has an appt. with the oncology doctor today. A follow-up. We'll find out what his PSA count is and he'll suffer through an examination (oh how he looks forward to that!!). I'm going along. He likes the company and it is a good excuse for working a half day.
I made it through yesterday. Called my hubby for a "pep talk" ... and focused on telling myself positive things, even though I wasn't "feeling" it. Enjoyed a lovely session with a set of almost 3 year old twins I work with ... playing on the floor, pretending without props. Who wouldn't smile at that? A long drive to and from the visit and was able to enjoy how beautiful the scenery was on the drive back into town.
Then I had my half day at my second job. Facilitated my first reflective supervision group via Skype. It went well. Something strange happened to my computer when I got home. It suddenly lost internet connection although my hubby was still connected so it is something with my laptop. Didn't have the time or energy to figure it out last night so I'll have to look at it tonight. If nothing else I'll do a system restore and I'm sure it will be right as rain.
Speaking of rain. It is raining here. I think we have rain in the forecast for the remainder of the work week but Bob says Saturday and Sunday are supposed to be lovely, clear and in the mid 60's. I don't think it supposed to get over 50 today. It is my first day in shoes and socks.
I hadn't talked to my youngest son in quite some time so I called him on my way home from work just to hear his voice. He says to me ... did you hear what happened? No, what happened? He was fired from his job a week and a half ago!! I asked him, "how would I have heard?" Facebook!!! What happened to calling your parents? I calmly told him I don't read every post on facebook. What a bummer. I hope he finds work soon. My youngest is nearly 29 years old.
So ... I like myself. I like myself. I like myself. I like myself!! I love my body, fuller than it has been but still I love it. I crave healthy foods. My body efficiently burns calories and loses weight. I am satisfied with healthy foods. I listen to my body and provide the nutrition it needs to be healthy. I am kind to myself. I take care of myself. I sleep well. Our wood shed is full. I am organized and efficient. I plan well and follow through. I am a successful business woman and entrepreneur. I am an expert in my field. People pay me for my expertise. I am determined. I believe in myself. I perservere. I am financially stable. I earn $100,000 a year. I manage our finances well. I handle strong emotion and conflict calmly.
Practice. I continue to practice. Practice on my "inner" self. Practice patience. Practice diligence. Practice believing. Practice acting "as if." Practice. Practice. Practice.
I am grateful ...
1. We have 3 cords of wood coming, delivered, split, and stacked for $140.00 a cord. That's a good start!!
2. For the joy I experience in my work. It is sometimes very difficult and emotionally exhausting but I also have lovely moments with families, eating imaginary oatmeal from an imaginary bowl with an imaginary spoon and sharing in the delight of two toddlers. They don't see the number on the scale ... it means nothing to them. All they know is "Carol is here to play with us!!" and they are delighted. I must remember those moments.
3. My ability to hear my son's woes and not feel responsible for them nor feel responsible for rescuing him (I can't anyway).
4. The undying support and encouragement I receive from my fellow "silly sausages" here on fat secret. You help me through each and every day!!
5. Sleep has been good!!! It is one thing that has changed. I am grateful for restful sleep.
Yesterday ... my husband told me several times ... "remember I love you" during his "pep talk" to me. "remember who you are" writing it again now and thinking about it moistens my eyes. Whatever it is I'm learning I wish I would figure it out so I could see a decline in my weight. Oh darn. There I do again. Thinking "what am I doing wrong?" Be here in this moment Carol. Be here. Breathe in and out. Believe. Remember. I feel bloated. Breathe. Be still. Listen.
And on the journey goes ...
Time to get to the work of the day ... get ready for my two visits this morning ... see what I can get done before I need to head out the door. Today something wonderful will happen to me!!! I remember. I remember who I am. I am kind to myself. I do believe in myself. And I am grateful ... for this life of mine and the company I share on this journey. Take care ...
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522 kcal
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Rasva: 7,52g | Prot: 68,20g | Hh: 46,63g.
Aamiainen: peaches, vanilla almond milk, Body Fortress Whey Protein Powder, banana. Lounas: chicken breast meat, Cottage Cheese. lisää...
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2746 kcal
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Harjoitus:
Toimistotyö - 8 tuntia, Nukkuminen - 8 tuntia, Lepo - 8 tuntia. lisää...
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You are not doing anything "wrong". Let's trying doing more of what works. I was wondering if you would be interested in lowering your carb intake to under 100 a day? Lowering carbs made a difference for me. I appreciate how frustrated you are are and am so impressed at your resolve to stay positive. It is essential-especially when things are moving in the "wrong" direction-bloddy scale!! I was looking at your food journal and am suggesting that you try cutting out rice, potatoes, bread, starchy veggies like peas and corn and fruit. Try it for a week to see what happens? Maybe it won't make the difference for you but worth a go-part of the change up programme. My two cents. Your husband is so supportive-when I went on the Dukan diet-my husband did it with me. I knew I couldn't do it on my own-too much temptation. I hope this is not too intrusive. I want to help and see you enjoy the results of your efforts.
04 loka 11 jäseneltä: Densible
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Carol, I have to say that I did the same thing that Densible did and was going to suggest the same...those carbs can be a real weight loss bugaboo, and can cause gain even when we aren't eating that many calories and are exercising. You are a beautiful 50 something woman, and you are loved! Have a wonderful day!
04 loka 11 jäseneltä: ctlss
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Oh and flour things, like-pretzels-I love them but uh oh! Did we talk about nuts? I like pistachios in the shell because it takes so long to get them out, I have to think about how many I am eating. What about laughing cow light cheese as a snack? Sorry if I am repeating my self. I am so rattled trying to get ready to leave for my trip.
04 loka 11 jäseneltä: Densible
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Happy evening Carol. Bloody scale, eh, bet you want to kick it into touch. I love the "silly sausage" thing, Better watch it though, Atkineers eat sausages!!! Loved the image of you on the floor with the twins eating imaginery oatmeal - no calories there! lol. And that hubby supports you, so much to be grateful for and you are. You just want it all, like the rest of us! Hope you had a wonderful evening and that you got your laptop fixed and that your business takes off and that the weight falls off and that your husband's appt goes off well and everything wonderful for such a wonderful woman. XO
04 loka 11 jäseneltä: sarahsmum
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Oh, and the next trip to florida is February 2012 and hoping to meet ChattyCathy in Tampa if she is there at that time. Taking MIL with us too this time, she is 89 and an amazing lady, we are all looking forward to it. Wish there was some way to meet you too but one of these days......
04 loka 11 jäseneltä: sarahsmum
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I will consider the low carb thingy. I have to tell you though, the only diet I actually gained weight on was Atkins. And I am puzzled, as to how I lost weight before ... when I started here on FS without paying any mind at all to how many carbs I consumed. Just wondering. I don't consider any of your input intrusive at all. I really appreciate the time and attention you pay to me!! Thanks!!
04 loka 11 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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Look at my diet it lower net carbs and low fat high protein. I have lost 76 pounds on it. :)
04 loka 11 jäseneltä: Richardls659
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the way your body responds is different at the different stages in life...When I first started the SB diet, we cut out all carbs and then added them back in slowly to see which ones affected us and at what times of the day we could eat them...hubby and I were both different...
04 loka 11 jäseneltä: veggies yuk
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I agree with Densible, there are carbs and carbs. I would suggest you to limit the starchy ones, like grain based food. When you load your plate with a large salad, a piece of meat and vegetables as a side dish, there is a big chance that you will feel full and satisfied. To give you an example, there is the same amount of carbs in a half slice of bread than 6 cups of lettuce... You can get much more to eat with veggies than grain! You're doing well Carol, just keep going, adjust things and give time to your body to respond.
04 loka 11 jäseneltä: jessyline
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Great challenge Dens. Try it, plus you aren't cutting them out entirely as on atkins. Loving the new word, I sure felt like one on my journal today LOL! So. How can I train my hub to be so good at those pep talks, he isn't very good at it. I mean he is there for me, but I never like what he says heehe. Your journal helped me today, I've been very inpatient w/ myself lately ...
05 loka 11 jäseneltä: cindyshine
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Hi Carol- hate that stinking scale!!! The suggestions on food you're getting is where I am heading- lean meats, veggies fruits,,and fewer carbs...it's so hard!! I just wish we could eat and not think : )....oh yeah- that's how I got here!
05 loka 11 jäseneltä: sharonfriz
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I hate that stinking scale too!! I think you were right to opt for the sleep vs the exercise. I hope your hubbys appointment goes well and I hope you can get your computer restored. I am getting to hate computers too..lol Your son and FB..so sorry and hope he finds a job soon but how like kids to just post something. Glad you got to talk to him. Hope you had a great day yesterday and I will look for your journal today. I didn't know SHaron got the book too. Guess I will have to get a schedule and get on the ball. Too much going on in my head right now and can't seem to keep anything straigh or together. But I am trying so please don't give up on me.
05 loka 11 jäseneltä: chattycathy1955
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I will NEVER give up on you Cathy!!!
05 loka 11 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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