So, I am back to Germany. Still not focusing 100% on work, but at least trying hard. I am in a bad mood. Somehow sad, unhappy, and relieved my uncle has been found (dead, but better knowing it soon rather than never or in a few months/years). My family is making even more pressure on me, cause they want me to come back to Italy. The point is, I love my life in Germany: my job, my partner, my friends, my way of living here. In Italy I cannot be as happy as I am here and now with my life. So, this makes me nervous. Since a few weeks I started beign heavily agressive again. I have some random moments when I become angry, and I put it to the closest person. Yesterday I made a girl selling bus tickets at the airport cry, I have really been nastywith her. The point is, I realized it only when it was over since a few hours. And did the same yesterday with my father yesterdaymorning before leaving. I hate this behavior of mine. I want to learn how to control it and get rid of it. I just don't see it coming, but realise it only afterwards. I am confident I can make it, as I did with the overeating episodes. It will taketimeand effort, I will get over it. After all the stress and food in Italy I feel very heavy and bloated. I gained 2 kilos (about 4+ pounds). I am aware my scale introduces a systematic error of +2kilos on every measurement. I double checked with other 3 scales (swimming pool and friends' ones). Anyway, this two kilos I got on arereal. I want to get rid of them and the bad emotions by going running and/or rollerblading every day for 30minutes, till the weather is good enough.
I have to still work a bit. Have a good time, fatsecreters.
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1945 kcal
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Rasva: 76,20g | Prot: 100,70g | Hh: 214,61g.
Aamiainen: Cappuccino, Croissant. Lounas: Riso Bianco, Petto di Pollo (senza Pelle). Päivällinen: Barbabietole, Scamorza, Focaccia. Välipalat/Muut: Torta al Cioccolato (con Glassa di Cioccolato). lisää...
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2176 kcal
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Harjoitus:
Kävely (hidas) - 3 km/h - 40 minuuttia, Lepo - 2 tuntia ja 20 minuuttia, Nukkuminen - 7 tuntia, Toimistotyö - 11 tuntia, Kotityöt - 3 tuntia. lisää...
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when people expect things from us that we can't and don't want to give them, it can often make us angry and resentful,,,,,,
resentment can be brutal.
You are an adult,,,,,,,,,,tell your family you love them, but you want to live in Germany.
and leave it at that,,,,,,you have no reason to feel guilty for your life choices,,,,,,
I hope things get better soon,,,,,,and I'm sorry about your uncle.
01 elo 13 jäseneltä: CommaHolly
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Thnks a lot for your words!
05 elo 13 jäseneltä: Lizzie983
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Painohistoria - Lizzie983
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