Päiväkirja - fatihaji02, 04 marras 14

ahh i hope you feel better. does this mean you are not taking a break from fatsecret anymore?  

Dee, I want to take an emotional detox from facebook, instagram and fatsecret to sort my life out but it is hard - my life is in twists and tangles - I am sort of an emotional wreck and need to get my act in order you know :) 

i understand. i went through a rough patch this year and decided to deactivate my facebook account, kind of crawled under a rock, it was hard but it was worth it. ive never been on instagram and this is only my second week on fatsecret. i think its always a good thing to take a step back and put yourself first, its crazy how much you realise you needed it when you come out the other side stronger and happier. i say, go for it! if you need to talk, I'm all ears 

thank you Dee :) I do need someone to talk to ....this year was incredibly hectic for me - I don't have many friends and my family is going through their own problems hence they don't have time for me (I am apparently the strong one so I am suppose to deal with family problems and my own)...to them my problems are non-existent and honeslty I feel that's the problem, I am too 'perfect'; I have been trained to give people what they 'want' - to smile when I am moody, to laugh when I am sad ....all this is making me miserable! - my mother is awesome however at times she can be overcritical - she wants me to be the best and I just want to slack a bit lol I want to just be human and be happy - my love life is non existent, I have been trained by my family not to flirt or show any emotional attraction - apparently lots of guys like me but are afraid of me and it hurts... but no one understands that - everyone's like it's a blessing to be single - in certain regards I agree but it hurts...I want to be strong -I used to be strong, but with lots of effort - I felt the need to be perfect and it drains you! - now I just want to be human - I want to be happy ...I want to be selfish 

sent you an inbox message 

thank you darling - I have responded 

hey hope u doing ok, you gots my number if u need anything ok just kidding lol pop me a mail if anything is bothering u ok :) 

Lol thanks Ibiza and thanks Deb, sorry for dumping all my problems on you :(....God bless ....I am doing much better Ibiza just keep me in your duas :) 

I meant Dee sorry :/ 

hey lol dont worry about it....i dump my problems over here all the time :P if i dont il go bonkers without the help of all of you guys and dont worry i'll keep u in my dua's :) 

Haha you too kind....jzk! 

what I have learnt maturing (read growing old) is to have the courage to be yourself. When you want to say 'No' say 'No' even though it may offend others. Or else you end up being everyone's marionette. Blessings 

Yes I need to say no to all the BS - esp saying NO to being weak - I guess in a way I put up with my very own nonsense - like being over-sensitive, blaming myself for when things go wrong - no more NO NO NO! ;)....fati will you be weak? No! ...will you put up with nonsense? No....will you start taking responsibility and sorting yourself out, layer by layer as Dee says? A BIG FAT (pun intended) YES! 

aaaah yes now i understand lol haha just joking pls dnt take offence, im just messing around :)but ur right, u need to be urself cause if u arent and if u just go with the flow and pretend all along then ur in for big problems 

LOL nice pun 

So I don't know the real story and I'm kind-off trying to figure out by reading some of the things you said , so this is my 5c - fati you will get through this! - If you need to break away from all the social stuff do so, but live your life , break lose like a coloured goose. Maak los dai doekkie en skut jou hare and just enjoy it. everyone is giving great advise above, but this is all about you and what you going to do. ( big hug)  

Offence to? ....yup no can't keep sweeping everything under the rug 

haha thanks! 

Aggg Dankie Saige :) yaaa die doek is baie stiff lol ... ek moet a bietjie skit ook ....ek moes net bly wees - doen wat maak my bly ...it's shocking how difficult it can be to just be happy some times :) 

lol naa was telling NowIunderstand not to take offence cause i said aah yes now i understand lol (bad attempt at a joke)............wheres my hug lol