I'm back at my data training again ... getting "developed" as Flaxseed would say!! LOL!!! Fortunately instead of ALL day we only have to be here HALF a day!! I am soooo happy about that!!! I think I drank too much coffee this morning ... I stopped twice this morning on my drive to fill up my travel cup ... whoa ... LOOK OUT!!!
It is rainy/snowy ... mostly rainy today. Maybe we'll get a tad of snow at our home. I started "worrying" about my weight this morning, slipping into feeling like I have failed because I am not 175. That was my original goal (which I changed to 180 because it just wasn't happening and I wanted to feel successful). The silly thing is I like the way my clothes fit ... I think I look pretty good ... so why am I stressing over this? I don't know ... I'm sure I'll figure it out and move on ... probably just too much coffee? Too much "comparison"? Warped body image?
Well ... I should be paying attention to my training so ... here are my five for today ...
I am grateful for
1. this training being done at noon instead of 4:30 this afternoon (it was 6:30 before I got home last night ... UGH!!) 2. being able to "stress" here and knowing you'll all figuratively knock some sense back into me 3. one of my colleagues joining the fatsecret family!! Welcome Kristi!!! 4. the hope that we can stay home ALL weekend!!! 5. being able to catch up a little on fatsecret while sitting in this training!! LOL!!!
Have a wonderful day ... I will work on being kind to myself if you all will do the same today ... I will remember that there isn't really a "hurry" if you too will do the same ... it's a bargaining Tuesday!!!
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Rasva: 28,12g | Prot: 72,96g | Hh: 177,03g.
Aamiainen: Fiber One, cracked wheat bread, fat free cheese slice, large egg, water. Lounas: Blue Bunny Light Yogurt, apple, white turkey meat, Whole Wheat Sandwich Thins. Päivällinen: Healthy Choice Roasted Sesame Chicken. Välipalat/Muut: Special K Protein Bar. lisää...
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precor elliptical - 50 minuuttia, Lepo - 4 tuntia ja 10 minuuttia, Toimistotyö - 7 tuntia, Ajaminen - 4 tuntia, Nukkuminen - 8 tuntia. lisää...
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That's great that you get to leave at noon. It's supposed to snow here today too. We were short handed today and I had to go to lunch at 11 instead of 1. This afternoon will kill me. Oh I found Kristi and sent her a buddy request. Have a great day Moose!
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: chattycathy1955
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We all stress about that damn number on the scale. I swear, I could put on a pair of pants that I've never been able to pull up over my knees, but I'm not happy unless the scale says what I think it should say! LOL Have a great half day - I'm so jealous!!!!!
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: MomofTwoGirls
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Cathy ... thanks!!! Kristi is a great gal ... I'm so excited she's on here!! Sarah ... I still have to go back to the office I DON'T get to go home!! LOL!!! But still ... at least I'll get to catch up at the office!! and ... Kristi sent you a message ... she was impressed by your weight loss and I couldn't remember which date you posted your "before" picture!! It was sooo awesome!!!
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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What? That's not the Madaboutmoose I know......stressing over the scale? Over a measly 5 pounds??? You feel good, your clothes fit good.......that's what it's all about! Now let me see that "It'll be okay" attitude! I'm depending on you Girlfriend! :-) (((((HUGS)))))
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: mbhpro
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I think you sound very happy at this weight. You prob get worried when you fluct up thinking 'now thats to far from 175, you coulda tried while you were down' ... I KNOW the feeling lol. Maybe you are bored not having a new goal? It doesn't have to be weight, ya know? Try the new bike for x amount of time, or 1/2 time on both machines, or focus on streghthening something.
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: cindyshine
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HAha about the coffee. I always think it's pretty obvious when I've had too much by the way I write. (The entries get longer and longer...) Lol. About the #: On one hand of course there is no reason to stress if you like the way your clothes fit and you feel good about yourself. But on the other hand maybe you really do want to be 175. If you do, you CAN be. Stress-less-ly. I know when I first started back on here I did an exercise where I thought of an ideal number vs a number I knew I could reach. So first I shot for the one I knew I could reach, thinking I'd never be able to make that ideal. But now I'm thinking that the ideal one is in reach. There is some of that never-quite-good-enough feeling in wanting to be smaller and smaller, which I am of course not advocating. But if you really do want to be lower then you should go for it. Right? I will also practice being kind and not in a hurry. Thanks!
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: beets_yum
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In my heart I really do want to see 175 ... at least once!! LOL!!! However, I think I need to be careful here ... because realistically it may not be something I see anytime soon ... and I need to be cautious about the "diet monster" ... who is related to that darn "snack monster." "Diets" are not my friend. A "diet" to me means "deprivation" and that sets me up for "binging" or "making up for all the goodies I couldn't have" ... my old pattern. Sabotage. I can't do that ... so pay attention MOOSE!!! I like the idea of mixing other things up ... like my exercise. I WILL NOT stress over the scale ... I will work on that ... just a weak moment my friends!!
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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You, weak? NO! Come on MOOSE, your well maintained chart tells me YOU are successfull enough to not believe in THOSE monsters. You have control, you have had it all along. Well said though, no stress over that scale. :)
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: cindyshine
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I don't think it's necessarily weak. I think there are, at least, two voices at work. (At least for me.) One: There is the voice that tells you it's never good enough and you have to keep pushing lower and lower. Two: There is the voice that tell you you "can't." I try to figure out which one is at work. Like for me, I know I will never get back into my size 4 jeans even though there is a part of me that feels like I "need" to. I recognize that as an unhealthy need. I DO NOT want to look like one of those women who is skinny but looks dried out because she hasn't had full fat milk since the 80s. On the other hand, there is the voice that says even if I lose another 5 lbs I won't be able to keep it off so WHY BOTHER. There is a happy medium somewhere. I don't think you need to stress or deprive yourself. But maybe if you mix it up you will see it without having to strain for it.
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: beets_yum
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Yay to the half day conference! Even if you do have to go back to work, boo. I know what you mean about the # on the scale. Seems like all of us have some # or size in mind that we know isn't necessarily the best for us.
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: Chris1979
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Beets ... LOL!!! Great comment!! Sometimes I think I have FIFTEEN voices at work!!! Well, at least on days like this it feels like I have a serious multiple personality disorder going!! I loved the part about not wanting to look like "one of those women who is skinny but looks dried out because she hasn't had full fat milk since the 80's"!!! That cracked me up. I do think it is finding the balance between "I can't" and "why bother". I think ... focusing on maintenance and staying healthy is where I NEED to be right now ... and mixing it up here and there while I maintain ... and see what happens. I think I get influenced by too many extraneous factors ... like it seems like EVERYONE is still trying to lose, like I think 180 something still sounds "fat", like I still "feel" like a "big girl" (who am I fooling I am a "big girl" at 5'10"!!!), like the "chart" says I should weigh between 145 and 174, and on and on and on and on and on ad infinitum. My REAL goal is to stay UNDER 200 and to NEVER, EVER, EVER have to lose a large amount of weight again in my life. And so ... I AM under 200 and have been under 200 for months now AND so far, I have not gained more than 9 lbs or so on vacation. I AM SUCCESSFUL. Geesh ... I could drive myself nuts!!
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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Did you skip over my comment on purpose? lol I hope you don't think I am telling you to keep losing. I am not suggesting that. I mean to say that you DO have the power to push for more. If MORE is what you want, and since you don't sound sure all the time I just poke fun at you! I KNOW you have reached goal, you are successful. Moose, you are an inspiration! Those monsters will always be around, heck I invite thme in at times -but I don't want them taking over your dream! Btw, those are great goals -never to reach 200 again, and not have to lose again! Sounds PERFECT TO ME :)
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: cindyshine
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Beets why won't you ever be a size 4's again? Are you saying you were too skinny/unhealthy then? How tall are you? I am very short. and 4s on me well I was still pretty pudgy. I hope you both don't think I need a glass a fat milk if you ever see me in person, cause it has been a while ;P
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: cindyshine
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Oh Cynthia ... you are just too funny!!! Of course I didn't skip over your comment on purpose!! I know YOU aren't telling me to keep losing ... it is all me. You are who I have always wanted to be ... some little petite thing with little hands and feet and could wear a size 2!! LOL!! Instead here I am ... AMAZON LADY ... towering over most of the girls and boys ... LOL!!! Oh ... and then I put on my boots ... talk about tall!!! Perhaps I am having a menopausal moment with a surge of estrogen? Tee hee!!! Cynthia .. ya know I love you and I KNOW you are in my corner!!
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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I'm always so late to the party! I'll bet by now the caffeine has worn off and you're back to feeling good about yourself and your amazing progress. At least I hope so! (((((hugs))))) I don't like it when people are mean to my buddies, especially if it's themselves!
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: amryk
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psh... if only I had legs! SOME height at least -2 or 3 more inches like my mom or sister :( idk why I'm so tiny (structure, i mean, certainly NOT weight) I'm thick, remember? lol oh, I don't have little feet either.
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: cindyshine
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what what what??? did you think one second that you failed? let's say it's because of the caffein... you are doing great. maybe you were not confident enough to lower you goal weight, that's a very wise decision to take your time. we all know that going too fast with weight loss is not good. you feel good about you now, that's the most important. you are so strong, I can't imagine that you would fail the day you decide to lose 5 pounds. Please, don't doubt one second of your success. I also want to thank you for your words on my journal.
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: jessyline
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Thats what I am talking about Jessyline! They are talking about the balance of "I can't" and "why bother" but where is the voice of "I can" or "I DID" ??
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: cindyshine
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Cindy I agree, the voice of "I can" is the most powerful in my opinion. as soon as you decide you can, there is nothing to stop you. and of course looking behind and thinking "I did" is the best reward. we all have those "why bother" and "I'm not worth it anyway" thoughts, it's human. but it must not be the end of our dreams or commitments.
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: jessyline
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Of course, I still struggle with the bad, I just know that I can now, and that I did. I hope others will too.
02 helmi 10 jäseneltä: cindyshine
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