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I just came in from sitting in my rocker on the back porch, sipping my coffee, feeling the sun, and listening to the birds and chipmunks chatter! Does life get any better than that?
So, I'm one day shy of my weekly weigh-in and I was 183.4. 2.4 lbs higher than I was a week ago tomorrow but okay with it. It goes up and down and that is normal. Up, up, and up is not normal. I'm feeling pretty good about being more 'relaxed' about me.
It has been fun this morning, taking it a little slower than usual and catching up on fatsecret. I've spruced up my toes, enjoyed my coffee, and am happy to be here.
This afternoon is a doctor's appt. for Bob. I'm slightly anxious about his PSA level (to hear what it is) but am trying to stay in the moment. Lately I've been very aware of his cancer and the reality that my time with him may be shortened. I love him so much. He truly is the love of my life and I feel sad when I think about him not being here. I find myself watching him as he sleeps, listening to him breathe, drinking in every moment. Life will be what life will be and I know whatever may come I'll be fine. Yet still, those waves of sadness do come. Sometimes my emotions feel HUGE. I'll let you know what the results are ...
I am struck today by my younger friends here who are 'looking for love' and feeling a little down about not finding it yet. I want to give them each a HUGE HUG and tell them to slow down and just be good to themselves. Their entries bring such memories of those times for me ... and I remember how I felt like it was yesterday. What I have learned (one of the things) is that married isn't better than single, single isn't better than married they are just different. I wasted so much time and energy focused on what I did not have instead of what I did have. There isn't always rhyme or reason to 'why' things are as they are ... it just is. Be yourself, embrace life and take each moment as they come. There is much heartache and pain in life and there is also much joy!! Sorry if I sound 'lectury' or if I wax too poetic! LOL!!! This is me!!!
So ... today of course I am again grateful.
1. for beautiful blue skies, sunshine, and the great outdoors I live in ...
2. for perspective (I hope I can hold onto it!!!) and the realization that life is indeed a series of moments
3. for sharing such wonderful company here on fatsecret
4. for each breath my husband takes and each moment I have with him (even when he IS driving me NUTS!!!)
5. for the ability to feel ... pain, joy, sorrow, silliness, boredom, frustration, laughter, beauty, contentment, anger, disappointment, and the list just goes on and on and on ....
As always, be good to yourselves!!! Practice kindness towards yourself and others. Embrace the moments you have. Remember, life is indeed process not product and no ... we will never 'arrive' and never 'be done' ... never. Celebrate your successes, figure out what opportunities have presented amidst your crises. Take care my dear friends and thank you once again for being YOU!!!
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1544 kcal
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Rasva: 56,56g | Prot: 76,25g | Hh: 183,20g.
Aamiainen: Jarlsberg Lite, Thomas' 100% Whole Wheat Bagel Thins, water. Lounas: cottage cheese, mango. Päivällinen: mexican rice, Chicken Taco. Välipalat/Muut: Chocolate Cone (Medium). lisää...
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2974 kcal
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Harjoitus:
Ajaminen - 2 tuntia, Precor Elliptical - 1 tunti ja 30 minuuttia, Lepo - 12 tuntia ja 30 minuuttia, Nukkuminen - 8 tuntia. lisää...
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