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Off to the dentist ... I'll be back later and write a proper journal entry!!
I hope I am done with the dentist for a while. I have a very expensive mouth!! LOL!! Just had a crown put on this morning so it was relatively painless.
I have some time today in the office to work on my pile of files. Joy!! Actually I am glad about that. As strange as that may sound. I'm not fond of being 'behind' and so far it is relatively quiet in here so maybe I'll be able to concentrate.
As usual, the weekend passed much too quickly. But ... in less that two weeks we have a long weekend getaway planned and that gives me something to look forward to!! For some reason it 'feels' more like October than September ... I hope that doesn't mean snow will come early. I love the snow but I'm not quite ready for it yet.
So let me ponder what I am grateful for today ...
1. buddies who look out for me ...
2. day to day life ... while it isn't always very exciting I love the predictability
3. the ability to push myself with exercise, even when I am not really 'feeling' it!!
4. watching the colors change, the leaves fall, and the season changing ...
5. Tom Selleck starting a new series ... of course I can't remember the name of it but I do love Tom Selleck!!!
My mother is feeling nervous about the upcoming changes in her life as she approaches her retirement date. She tells me she vascillates between excitement and fear. She's not fond of change and is worrying about all sorts of things. She knows it will most likely be fine, it is just the process that is stressful. I suggested she embrace the anxiety instead of fighting it. WHAT??? How do you do that??? I admit, it does sound a bit strange. The anxiety will be there, whether it is embraced or resisted. What if we could acknowledge our anxieties and just let them be. Swim in them a bit until our fingertips got all wrinkly? Change does provoke anxieties. The unknown isn't comfortable for most. So, if we were to breathe deeply, acknowledge that yes indeed we are anxious about the future, permit our brains to talk a bit to our anxieties, and acknowledge this will pass ... eventually ... and it is normal. Would that change anything in our day-to-day life? I don't know. But, what the heck ... it might be worth a try!!
I have anxieties about the future. What if my husband's cancer isn't gone? What if the economy continues to lag and there are more cutbacks at my job? What if I don't maintain my weight ... and I gain? And of course ... more.
I think it might be about balance. I do consciously avoid the "would've, could've, should've" self talk as much as possible. I find that a complete waste of my time. Nothing I can do about the past. And the "what if" that hasn't happened yet? Well, that is slightly different. I can't control the future but the choices I make today may impact the future, especially in terms of my own choices about what I do or do not do. Planning I believe is positive. But, since tomorrow is uncertain in many ways and is impacted by many more factors than just me ... well I choose to be in today as much as I reasonably can.
So today brings me another opportunity to practice kindness towards myself. To realize what I do and do not have control over. To acknowledge my challenges and my strengths. To embrace ME. I am worth it. Embracing me doesn't mean I 'like' everything about me ... just that I can sit with it, be okay with being human, fallible, and challenged.
Do have a good enough day!!! Do practice kindness towards yourself as you travel along your respective journeys. Let' laugh, love, and live!!!
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Aamiainen: Jarlsberg Lite, large egg, La Tortilla Factory Low Carb Tortilla, water. Lounas: Jarlsberg Lite, Flat Out Light Italian, Weight Watchers Yogurt, banana, white turkey meat. Päivällinen: Lean Cuisine Chicken Tuscan. Välipalat/Muut: Special K Protein Bar. lisää...
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Toimistotyö - 9 tuntia, Ajaminen - 2 tuntia, Precor Elliptical - 46 minuuttia, Lepo - 4 tuntia ja 14 minuuttia, Nukkuminen - 8 tuntia. lisää...
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Oh, have a great time! lol Ok, not really, but you can put on your ipod and pretend your on an island somewhere, having a great time! And don't worry, I'll be there again soon too.
20 syys 10 jäseneltä: MomofTwoGirls
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Catch you when you return.
20 syys 10 jäseneltä: chattycathy1955
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Hope it's a painless visit! :)
20 syys 10 jäseneltä: Chris1979
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Reading your journal made me think of me and all the constant worries I have about everything and how everyday I just try and tell myself to be happy and try to live in the moment. I'll admit that somedays it is hard..always a learning process, always a new road block, but with each and everyone we are learning something important. Sometimes the lesson is tough to see and sometimes we really don't want to learn another lesson but we are molded each and everytime by the trials and tribulations as well as the happiness of each day.
20 syys 10 jäseneltä: chattycathy1955
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Hey Moose, Tom's new show is Blue Blood. :) I love him too! I loved watching Magnum P.I. with my dad when I was a kid! I'm sure this comment will bring forth more youngbug comments but I can't help my age lol. I am terrified of the dentist-BAD experiences under my belt. You're a good one Moose, I hope you have a great day!
20 syys 10 jäseneltä: Junebug7210
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Hi Moose- thinking about you. So sorry about the FS buddy thing...that's really weird. You are such a wonderful encouraging buddy!! Have a happy crown...hahahahaha!
20 syys 10 jäseneltä: sharonfriz
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So you've been crowned today - always knew I was talking to royalty. You're so right about anxiety, worrying about it doesn'tchange anything and just spoils time that you could be enjoying.
20 syys 10 jäseneltä: flaxseed
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I think you are right about anxiety, we should learn to just let it be. The thing about you accepting your weight and your flucts let you maintain easier didn't it? I just realized that when you transitioned your way of thinking -that and you being so darn kind to yourself! Heeehe have a wonderful day!
20 syys 10 jäseneltä: cindyshine
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Hey Moose, just wanted to give you something that I found that helped me through a bad time in my life...
The Light Upon The Sea
by Robert S. Bise
There was a time it seemed as though
My life was tossing to and fro
And I, left with nowhere to go,
Was subject to the sea.
But there, ahead, a beam of light
Peered through the darkness of the night
And granted to me clearer sight
That I might be set free.
I steered a course toward the land
To find a refuge on the sand
And maybe touch the gentle hand
That guided me along.
And when I reached the coast that night,
Upon a hill, the shining light
Was tended by a welcome sight . . .
My friends had led me home.
20 syys 10 jäseneltä: Junebug7210
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21 syys 10 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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Junebug thank you for the words from Robert S. Bise. The words are lovely, and it sounds like somthing I would enjoy reading:) Good Morning Moose, stopping by to say Good Morning and have a good "International Peace Day", PEACE:)
21 syys 10 jäseneltä: Lisa Online
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Moose, I loved that bit about embracing anxiety. I really try to do things like that--to be aware of my emotions, to acknowledge them. It's hard. But I could see how it could be easier with practice. It's especially good for me, I am just an anxious person by nature. I'm also learning, slowly very slowly, how to avoid that negative self-talk. I'm full of would've could've should've and I try so hard to nip that in the bud now when it springs up. Sometimes I'm more successful than others. Good luck with your crown today.
21 syys 10 jäseneltä: beets_yum
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Oh and my grandma, who never said anything of this sort, always used to say about Tom Selleck: He can put his shoes under my bed anytime. As a kid I didn't understand the reference, but I knew vaguely it was something kind of saucy.
21 syys 10 jäseneltä: beets_yum
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LOL Beets ... that is one of my favorite sayings!!! The women in my family use that a lot "he can put his shoes under my bed anytime" the alternative which I am not as fond of is "he could eat crackers in my bed!!" LOL
21 syys 10 jäseneltä: madaboutmoose
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