My name is Abrianna, I am 23 years old and I am a fat girl in denial. I was relatively smaller in high school and since then, I have been slowly, but surely putting on the pounds, especially sinsce I have started college. Sometimes I still think of myself as that girl in high school....but I am not her anymore. I am fat. I carry it in my stomach, and a few other places and I thought that I could be happy with myself. I thought that it was okay to be a bigger girl, hell, I even thought that I could still turn a few heads. Not true anymore. No, now I am fat. Fat is a word that I no longer wish to be associated with. I no longer wish to long to be that skinnier girl that I was in high school. I long to feel good about myself. I long to be able to sit down in tight jeans and not worry about my stomach hanging over. I long to sleep better at night and to have better sex with my fiance!!! I long to have a healthy life, one where I do not have to worry about diabetes or heart disease. I long to turn heads again. I long to look good in a bathing suit. I long to feel that runner's high that used to keep me going. I long to stop feeling like a failure! I long to be a success!!! I long to overcome this constant battle of fatness! I long to feel good about myself emotionally and physically!! This is yet another attmept....with all of my efforts, I hope for it to be much more successful than the past attempts!

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Update:
It's been a year. I have gained almost all of my weight back. I am getting married in t-minus one year. I want to start a healthy life with Mike. I do not want this for myself any longer. I deserve to be healthy. I deserve to live a long life. I don't need to treat myself like this any longer.

Goal 1: Lose 13 lbs to lower my BMI two points: 31.8 to 29.8 to
take me out of the obese range